Sometimes you can’t put your finger on why certain things make you happy. Whether it be listening to an album front to back while enjoying a glass of wine. Or maybe it’s a full day of watching NFL football without leaving the couch. I don’t know. There is no exact science to happiness. It will always depend on the way you are feeling on a certain day. One thing is definitive, every single person on the planet perceives happiness in a different way. So attempting to define to them what makes you happy is nearly impossible. Even if you could, it wouldn’t be the same for them. What made them happy two years ago may not be identical to what makes them happy now. People evolve, even if they don’t change.
Five years ago I didn’t really enjoy the outdoors. Had zero time for documentaries or cooking. Just as your musical taste changes, what you find interesting will also change. I think it’s healthy. It is being able to accept that change is good is the tough part. People that can’t accept their growing mind or don’t want to deal with it will complement their old habits with alcohol and drugs to try to spice it up again. Not understanding that they are evolving.
I constantly get told that people think I have things pulled together. That I make life look easy. This couldn’t be more incorrect. I don’t have any idea what is going on half of the time. I don’t know what next year has in store for me. The company I worked for shut their doors about 9 months ago, and people were very concerned for me (which I appreciated by the way). Thinking that all I knew how to do was be a retail salesman. I didn’t know what was going to come next. But worrying about it is useless, you can’t do anything about it. They made their decision. I ended up finding a job in business to business selling. Something that I had zero experience in, but knew my skill set could handle. You go with the flow. Don’t overthink things. People worry, it’s what we do. You should generally be prepared of course, but nothing good comes from worrying constantly. Things are going to happen, could be good or it could be bad. You adjust regardless.
Sara had a scare recently with blood clots in her lungs. It was terrifying. The percentage of death sits at about 30% for pulmonary embolism. She is currently on blood thinners that will hopefully prevent this type of thing from happening again, but nothing is certain. It was a scary situation for us as a family to be in. We never wanted it to be a pity party though. It’s a terrible thing to happen to somebody, but we will not stop living our lives because of it. You deal with it, and move on.
People love focusing on the negatives in the world. It’s an easy mindset to get into. You want everybody to think and feel the same way that you do. Everybody has that friend that is constantly complaining about all of the terrible things that are happening. Whether it affects them or not. They like to have people sink to their level. I have absolutely zero time for this. Bad things have happened to Sara and I, and there is no way that I will let that affect my outlook on life. You cannot predict what’s going to happen next. I just want to enjoy the limited time that I have on this planet, if they need a hipster for a space mission, I could be enticed.
My simple philosophy for life is to enjoy the little things and don’t dwell on the negatives. Ask yourself the question constantly. Would you want to hang around with you right now? People will always want to have the appearance of having it all pulled together. But nobody really does. All I want is a hard drive full of places I have been and people that I have met. That is it! Simple words from a simple man.